....The Hour of the Wolf
A Glimspe of Being In the Flow
Spiritual Journey Woman:
Thank you.
During the night - the hour of the wolf ... fear death and fear all things. Die a thousand deaths. Frightened child. Still hiding behind the great mask. Spirit remains separate and is trying to merge... to step out from behind the mask.
I was reminded of what I felt before I left my first marriage. It felt like I was dying - I could not breathe... I knew I would die if I stayed... disease from poisoned spirit.
I was shown the image (previously viewed) of me as a young child, moving my hand over a cut - sensing I could mend it with the wave of my hand. The voices in my head were telling me I could not, so I accepted their words. Lighting candles in my room with my friend - making magic...child's play.
I was shown that the growth experienced after merging would be similar to the strength and detachment I felt after many, many hours of labor while bearing my first child. Everything changed... I had climbed a mountain. Before my child was born, I wanted to stop - make it stop - there was no escape.
I always look for a place to hide before slipping through to safe passage. I've never been denied safe passage, so why fear it.
I'm approaching another point of no return. I've done more work in a short period of time, than I had realized. I thought I'd have more time here. But, the time is nearing - I must advance, so (true to form) I am creating diversions - sensing impending pain or loss - I am trying to escape.
My favorite quote came to me: "There came a time when the risk to remain tight in the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom." - Anais Nin
I need to take action, so I try to act in the tin world but cannot commit, because there is a higher purpose for me... I must do more work.
Shaman initiation? This idea has spoken to me more than once, before I encountered you... and did again last night. I recognize the intensity of this, so, of course, I fear it... I need to learn more about it to vanquish the fear. Maybe there is another way...
In the morning - fierce headache!
Healing Facilitation Response:
Behind me, on a screen in my office, is a poster of a huge Wolf I placed to remind me of the Medicine of the Wolf that was so intstrumental in the Sacred Initiation which resulted in my entire life being dismantled and the process of putting it back together in a good way.
Also, in my healing room, the Sacred Space prepared for those who come ready to do the work of quantum paradigm shifts, hangs a picture. It is of beautiful flowers. The verse reads:
"There came a time when the risk to remain tight in the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom." - Anais Nin
The headache could be third eye activity or data transmission depending on whether the pain is mostly in the third eye area or feeling like a band around the top part of the head.
It could also indicate simply that thought structures are shifting and mental constructs dissolving. Our ego, or personality self, can distract with physical pain and uses that technique to slow or halt soul-level progress.
Meditation is very important right now. Be still as much as you can. I've walked through the place where you are. I can tell you it's beautiful on the other side of the fear.
Part Four of Spiritual Journey Woman Emails - Going Into the Void
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